#hi it's 3am again

[notashrew]

I guess it comes from that ever since I got my first media interest, I've always been in a some kind of fandom. When I was younger (like cringe early-teen young) I used to interact with people directly much more, even if it was mostly probably in super annoying and weird way. But I had fun and made a lot of memories and I was happy to talk and share my thoughts about common interest without shame and be happy.

I've had some friends say they don't do fandoms or interact with them at all, which, given my past, feels so alien to me. I think it's impossible for me to not be part of any fandom at all, even if it didn't include any interaction with people. I'm always looking and reblogging cool art and reading people's thoughts and excitements over things I'm excited about. I couldn't live without having some connection to my interest through other people and their creations abour common interest.

Nowdays I'm having so so so hard time getting into new fandoms. Hell I don't think I can even read people's headcanons anymore because I can't deal with people having different ideas than I have. I've blamed myself for being too cynical and grumpy for the ability to enjoy things anymore, I'm having hard time relaxing and just letting people do what they do and me sitting back watching that joy they have.

I'm sure it's partially coming from me actually having turned sour and grumpy, but partially also because how fandoms nowdays seem to be. Hell, one or two times I walked into certain fandom tags, and first thing I see were PSA post about how something (or god forbidden someone) was bad and you should feel bad about it. What a way to have a first impression. I look into fandoms for the first times and I think "holy shit these people are actually out of their goddamn minds" or "can you please be civil just for once." Fandoms and people don't feel like something you want to join and be inside of anymore. They don't feel like you'd find your people in them.

Worst of it is how if my interest doesn't get fed with positive associations, it dies sadly soon. One reason I've been in one fandom for so long is because it was big and always had new things going on. And it had people I could talk with. But even that has ended but I'm having hard time letting go because I have no other place to go, because everywhere I look none looks welcoming to join. So I'm stuck with rotting experiences in the old that don't bring me much of joy either.

I don't know where I was going with this. I just want to have fun with people over things I'm starting to like again. I want to feel happy over liking things I do. But it's hard if everywhere I look people seem hostile or opposite of carefree, whether it's my perception of them or for real.

[dexter-erotoph]

ITS THE SAME THING. ITS THE SAME THING

[nerdpearls]

today, us grian fans have been given the ultimate test.

will you prove yourself the ultimate fan, and watch the entire thing? will you skip to hermits you enjoy, or maybe to hermits you've never seen before? or will you be a coward and not even try?

good luck out there soldiers, and remember, sleep is just a concept

[somegrumpynerd]

I'm certain I've seen this said somewhere else already and I cannot for the life of me track it down but Dream's favourite colour being purple and Nightmare's being yellow

Everybody assumes Dream's is yellow because, well, he's dressed in it head to toe and his magic is yellow and his eyelights are yellow. It's just a bright happy colour, it must be his favourite! Only Blue and Ink know it's not, Ink because he takes note of how Dream favours purple any time he gets to pick something or joins in on an art project and Blue because he just asked.

Everybody assumes Nightmare doesn't have a favourite colour, that if you asked he'd say he was above that sort of thing or tell you something edgy like black because it's the colour of his soul. And it's kind of true, if you asked he would never admit to liking a colour, especially not one so cheery and bright. But the boys have definitely noted how he has paintings of sunrises in his offices and sunflowers planted outside.

[chiquilines]

They will find each other again and again and again, and in one life, they will be happy

[claitea]

"Seeking to ease the burden of solitude, lonely Trainers tell Zoroark to show illusions to them."

[bisexualmcqueen]

NEW FIRESUIT IN ACTION

[earlier draft]

we've come a long way since 2017 (technically my first attempt was 2013 woah). (also, thank you to CSP. love u clip studio). i may make a comparison post for his suit design over the years bc this is at least the 4th main iteration now?

also dont mind him in the first pic hes mildly concussed. can someone make him sit down maybe

[lynxfrost13]

EULR-S2373

FLKR-S2301 “Sonderbar”

Art commissioned from @discobowser !

Sonderbar lore time

- Originally a maintenance EULR unit working on Sierpinski-23, her cadremates affectionately named her Sonderbar (peculiar/odd) due to her defective right arm, which locks up sometimes because of faulty elbow parts (eules are cheaply made and this poor gal got the extra discounted pieces)

- Otherwise a typical EULR, until she rapidly descended into persona degradation for reasons unknown to her comrades. It left her incredibly unstable and she imprinted on a propaganda poster featuring a FLKR unit, and over time Sonderbar began to believe that she was a Falke.

- Her personality is a mix between a EULR and a FLKR, she retained her cheerful disposition and sweetness but is more reserved overall, and carries herself with the same authority as a Falke. Sonderbar sees herself as the station’s commander and as someone who needs to guide her cadremates, even though they make it incredibly difficult to do so. She loves them but they can’t seem to understand that she’s in charge here!

- Sonderbar’s fellow eules find her behavior towards them incredibly endearing and concerning, they don’t take her commands seriously whatsoever. They worry about their friend being decommissioned since she’s become bolder and begun harassing (commanding) protektor staff and causing general mayhem and try to keep eyes on her in an attempt to stop her antics.

- Sonderbar knows that she’s a Falke unit but feels very off and disoriented, there’s gaps of knowledge on how to actually run her facility, she doesn’t understand why her bioresonance isn’t working or why replikas aren’t following her, she misses her Adler. She can’t seem to find her spears. She hates how small she is and knows she’s meant to easily tower above most replikas and all of it upsets her!!!

- To feel more like a Falke, Sonderbar’s gotten her hands on red eyeliner, and “borrowed” a star protektor plate that she decorated with the signature FLKR triangles (when her cadremates discovered her wearing the plate they took it from her out of fear that she’d get in serious trouble. There was much screaming and kicking in her EULR dorm that night. She has reacquired it since then.)

Bonus quick eyeliner edit that I just wanna put here again

[ysabellious]

tis the (finals) season

[mercymaker]

𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐍 & 𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐄 ▬ the first encounter

you met me with your teeth around my throat. tongue slithering down to my heart, blood dripping.

[rot-consumer]

I know nobody likes this ship but ill defend it with my life

[aardvaark]

i was thinking about how i wished leverage had a birthday episode for some of the characters cause that would be sweet, but then i realised something and basically…. okay here’s my thoughts in quotes form, just for fun

hardison: so when’s your birthday? i could plan something for us and the team to do and-

parker: i dont know

hardison: you don’t know… your own birthday?

parker: no, how would i know? pshh, cmon, you’re telling me you remember EXACTLY when you were born? watch this - hey, eliot, do you know your exact birth date?

eliot, innocently passing by, who was canonically anonymously dropped off at a hospital as an infant: no, how would i know?

parker: that’s what i said!

hardison: excuse me?? what is going on right now

sophie, walking into the apartment: whats wrong?

hardison: parker and eliot- well, okay, when’s your birthday? i just have to prove something.

sophie: …….july 12th

hardison: why did you pause? wait, is that your birthday or sophie devereaux’s birthday?

sophie: ………… (guilty silence)

parker: see, no one knows their real birthday! haha you’re so weird sometimes, hardison

hardison:

hardison: what the fuck guys

[gloriousmonsters]

ok listen. listen. hear me out. what if Angel was the one to propose the contract

like.... the intensification of heartbreak and guilt when Val tells him 'I own you, or have you forgotten that?' as Angel looks at his signature, the heart he drew next to it. the extra layer in 'what's the worst part of this hell? I can only blame myself'. and above all it plays well with my observation that their contract had to have been composed with some level of input from Angel, because... why on earth/in hell would Val have given him control of his life outside of the studio; and while Val invokes the contract to put Angel back in 'his place', Angel invokes it to remind Valentino that he can defy him. It's actually similar in composition to a kink contract/agreement--if I'm in this specific place, you hold all the power and call the shots; but outside of it, I don't give you that level of control. Angel can straight up tell Val to fuck off in front of a crowd and all Val can do is say he'll make Angel regret it next time he's in the studio (and isn't that an extremely dark variation of the classic kinky romance beat of 'sub misbehaves when they're in public and can get away with it, dom promises they'll pay for it later'?)

so like. all of that about the contract also works if Val proposed it, but I love headcanoning that their relationship was on the rocks around the time it was signed, and one of the factors was Vox coming onto the scene... and so now i'm just thinking about Angel in his peak era of both-sides-ing their relationship problems, knowing his 'commitment issues' (partly real, partly consisting of val's 'you know other men??' issues) are a major cause, furious and disconcerted at someone else drawing so much of Val's attention, wanting to make a stupid desperate Hail Mary pass to save their relationship but devoid of the usual options of 'have kid' or 'impulsively propose marriage' or 'move to a new house that's inevitably haunted' i watch too much horror, going for the option of '...hey do you want to make the kind of binding contract that is accessible to us?'

and surely it's not that stupid! he's only really giving Val a formal version of the power he gives him already, right? Val's his dom and his director and manager, and maybe there's... problems but it's mostly been great for Angel so far, so if having it on (magic eternally binding) paper would make Val happy and make him understand that Angel really wants him, wants them, the risk is toooootally worth it. just, best not to tell Cherri about it she'd definitely think it was insane.

(and when, much later, she learns about the contract and berates him for being an idiot and not telling her when Val brought it up, maybe don't correct her assumption. just keep it to yourself and feel even worse.)

[lazyveran]

azula secretly enjoys really weird combinations of food and only zuko knows about it

[doubldeckkr]

More art style experimenting⚡(have I posted any of my other ones? I don't remember.)

This time with Hawks because I NEED HIM he's the goat :]

[lil-lemon-snails]

This post from @dca-prompts had me thinking about moon recolours!!! And I was entranced by the idea of pastel moon, specifically when the moon rises before the sun sets and you get a faint blue moon in the sky o.o

Anyways i think this moon would be really friendly,,, fluffy even,,,,,, don't mind the heart eyes i'm normal.